clouds

it's like I swallowed
an iceberg when I see you
and I wonder if it has
anything to do with

the fact that I still
want you somehow
and all the things you said
killing me now

you locked yourself inside me
and felt like in a cage
but I'm opening up all doors now
though you still can't fly away

so I wish I had the guts
to say everything
troubling my mind
instead of swallowing
every cloud in the sky

I wish I could just spill it
and get it over with
to stop thinking
about how you'd react

it's just not fair
again I'll go to bed
trying to repair
what's in my head

you locked yourself inside me
and felt like in a cage
but I'm opening up all doors now
though you still can't fly away

all those spikes and strains
all those meaningless silences
and the bad moments
they might've spoken
for themselves

all those explosions inside
maybe they already said it all

still I can't get around it
still I wish I had the guts
to say what's troubling my mind
instead of swallowing
every cloud in the sky